In forgiveness I find peace.

When I was 13 years old, my friends and I hung out in the field during recess. One of the guys in our friend group got mad at me. I can’t even remember why. What I remember is him throwing a rock at me and calling me a racial slur. I was humiliated, ashamed, and afraid.

That was a defining point for me. If someone was willing to judge me because of my skin tone, why shouldn’t I judge myself entirely? So I did. I hated my skin, hair, body and most of all myself. I have since made peace with my body and learned to love it, but the memory would still follow me around. 

When I asked myself, “how can I heal my fear of judgment” this memory popped up. I knew it was time to release it in order to free myself. I visited the memory and re-lived it, only this time I offered the guy forgiveness:

“I forgive you. I know that hurt people, hurt people and I can’t imagine what you were going through but I hope you have found peace. I hope that love and light surround you and you have found happiness. I wish you a life filled with love. You are forgiven.” 

I turned around to that 13 year old version of me and wrapped her in my arms. I offered her healing, love and permission to let this go. It was time to move on. (I will save the details of this moment for another day)

Afterwards, I felt a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders. I had a burst of energy and I felt so powerful. By extending forgiveness for the guy and for myself I freed up some space in my body for healing. I allowed myself to feel peace. For this first time in 17 years I feel like I healed a wound and I’m able to move forward. 

Forgiveness isn’t about the other person; it’s about you and I finally understand that. 

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